Happy Thursday Everyone! One of our loyal reader's has decided to give her testimony, which touches on the week's topic. Read and learn......
Blinded by his big brown eyes, bright smile & church boy ways. I knew what he was capable of, but his words got to me. He was very affectionate & loving, he listened to my problems. I was in a rough place in my life, and he was there when I had no one else. My mother didn't like me dating him, saying " The pastor took him in for a reason, something is wrong." But her words only pushed me to him even more. He loved me dangerously, literally. He never let me out his sight from day one. At first it was flattering, after a while it became scary, but I didn't know how to walk away from him, I couldn't because he needed me. He had been through so much in his life; from no father, mother on drugs, he definitely came with a lot of baggage, but the feeling that we both needed each other felt good. But ANY man with emotional baggage from his childhood is not a safe man. A few months went by, and he became extremely controlling & jealous. He made up rules that I had to follow:
Rule #1: no talking to any boys after 9 o'clock
Rule #2: no keeping in contact with an ex boyfriend
Rule #3: do what I say!
One night I slipped up and sent him a text after 9 o'clock saying "Goodnight Dorian"..........and Dorian is NOT his name. That night I received hell, I had never been talked to like that in my life, sad thing is that he had me feeling bad & apologizing like I did something wrong, like I had betrayed him. A few more months went by, and I slowly started to come to my senses, I tried to break up with him but he wouldn't let me leave. He called, begged & cried, but that was just the beginning, that's when shit got real. That one phone call changed my life. He called me one day after school, and he was shaking something in the phone to where I could here. He asked, " Do you hear that? It's a bottle of blue pills!!! If you leave me I swear ima take the whole bottle right now!!!" He threatened to come to my school the next morning and look for me, to go off on my mom who he felt was the reason for me leaving, he threatened to come to the game that night and fight who ever he had to. He called me a bitch and said I was trying to make him look stupid. I have never feared a person in my life, and I ONLY fear God, but that moment I was terrified of him and what he would do to me. I walked into the school the next morning constantly looking over my shoulder, running straight to my class. I was paranoid!! I decided to go to the counselor at my school & let them know he threatened to come to the school and find me. The quickly made a trespassing warrant so he can't come within so many feet of the school. But it didn't stop there, a few days later, I was in the car with a friend on our way home from school, we were at the stop light right outside of my school and I received a text..........Text: "I see you..." .........One of the first things he said to me when we first met was "I am CRAZY about you." He indeed was crazy. With that being said, when people show you who they are the first time, believe them. And remember Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. (1 Corinthians 13:4-7) Love should NEVER hurt, so don't let it.